life's great struggle

life's great struggle for me (at least at the moment) is working out. I've been awful at it this summer and my body knows it. I don't feel as good as i could, my stress level is higher, i could go on.

But the crux of my problem is that i've been really busy and i always think that an easier life is right around the corner. "next week will be better and i can start then. There's NO WAY i can do it this week!" but "next week" is no better.

This is not just a working out problem, it's the same with going out on dates with my wife, or calling a friend who lives out of town, or going to lunch with someone i want to go deeper with. "Now" always seems horribly inconvenient and i imagine that somehow tommorow will change all that. But it never works that way.

I guess what i'm learning is that you just have to do stuff like this NOW and not wait around. But how do you even begin?

argh! this makes me wonder if i'm bad at life-management or if i'm just struggling to fit too much in.

And hopefully this will serve as an adequate excuse for NOT blogging very often :)